| So its been forever since I've written an entry on here..but tonight I'm going to b/c my lj is not working right now and I need to write and let all out! I am emotionally weak right now..living in this house is bringing me down a lot. My dad is always yelling at me and cursing me out..and they say I'm never here..that I don't live here..but I'm gone a lot to get away from it all. Tonight my dad apologized for the way he's been acting towards me..but he has said sorry before and no change has happened w/ him..I know I need a better attitude sometimes..but I think his attitude has to improve more than mine..b/c calling me names when he doesnt get what he wants..isnt going to fix anything. I really am saving up so I can get out of here..I'm so set on leaving that I was thinking about becoming a flight attendant just so I could go away..literally..I know that seems crazy..just to drop everything and go..but I feel trapped here..how am I supposed to have such a positive attitude when he treats the entire family like shit?? Right now this is how I feel..and I know I'm blessed..but it makes me sad that he puts the guilt trip on me and says that when he was growing up if he ever talked back he would get a beat down..I know I shouldnt really talk back..but then again its not right for him to say horrible things to me..and think that I'm not going to respond in some way. I'm going to hang in there for as long as I can..I try to tell myslf one day I wont have to deal w/ this anymore..one day it will be better for me..I just have to have faith that God will take care of everything. |
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| P.S. but if you bitch and complain enough I will know that there are ppl out there who actually read this shit..and it will force me to update this site too!!!
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| I NEVER write in this thing anymore!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I just use it to subscribe to other ppls xangas! Check me out at:
http://www.livejournal.com/users/bibipunkinboo
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| So...omg...I haven't updated this thing in forever like 2 months and some change. Tell ya what...I'm going to do my best to start updating this....so peoples who don't have live journal know whats going on with ms. B-Ran-D!!! LOl. Well until next time! late. |
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| so its been like a minute and a half since I've been on here! So...nothing has been up lately I am enjoying second semester its all gravy! Well Gotta be going now. until next time. late. |
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